Getting Sayalee to latch on is just so difficult! I had sweat dripping down my brow at the end of the ordeal. It was too much for her too. She kept crying, and I felt like a monster trying to get her to do something she didn't have any interest in doing. She just seems so content drinking from her bottle, it is heartbreaking. It is not easy for the husband to understand why I am doing all this. All those women who wanted to breastfeed, but couldn't for some reason, will know what I mean.
I have the SNS, and tried using it by itself. No use, she just wouldn't latch on. Or she would for about 4 seconds and leave it crying for the bottle. Ultimately I had to give up and give her the bottle. Damn it!
Sometimes I feel mad at her for not wanting my breast, even for comfort. Please someone tell me that it is normal to feel this way.
The good news is that I got my Medela Swing. From tomorrow onward I am looking at a dedicated two hourly pumping sessions till I get my supply going. Right now I am so dried up, hand expression won't even give a little sheen or a hint of a supply.
I really don't know if this will work. But I'll pump like a mad woman for a year at least, even if I don't get anything out of pumping. That way I'll know that I really did try my best. Looking for some hope. Some hint of glistening that will say, hey, the milk is here and it will build up, and feed your baby with the best food she can ever get.
Really praying hard for this to work!
I have the SNS, and tried using it by itself. No use, she just wouldn't latch on. Or she would for about 4 seconds and leave it crying for the bottle. Ultimately I had to give up and give her the bottle. Damn it!
Sometimes I feel mad at her for not wanting my breast, even for comfort. Please someone tell me that it is normal to feel this way.
The good news is that I got my Medela Swing. From tomorrow onward I am looking at a dedicated two hourly pumping sessions till I get my supply going. Right now I am so dried up, hand expression won't even give a little sheen or a hint of a supply.
I really don't know if this will work. But I'll pump like a mad woman for a year at least, even if I don't get anything out of pumping. That way I'll know that I really did try my best. Looking for some hope. Some hint of glistening that will say, hey, the milk is here and it will build up, and feed your baby with the best food she can ever get.
Really praying hard for this to work!
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